Day 377: At Least My Imagination's Healthy

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Take one large screen tv, add some gel, a little ultrasound thinga majickey, an overtired, borderline desperate Lyme patient...there is a recipe for disaster. I'm not too catastrophic about medical tests (more que sera sera), but, with every click of the computer keyboard today, I became more and more worried.

"What's that giant hole?" I think, looking at the 3-foot monitor.

When you've experienced enough testing, you learn: They only click to a) measure the size of an organ or b) capture an abnormal finding.

For 20+ plus minutes, we go through the routine.

Click. Pause. Click. Press. Click. Click. Click.

"Take a breath. Hold it."

Again and again and again and again.

"This is it. I'm dying. My body is trashed. Stupid Ivermectin."

Sixteen months of worry flood my brain...

What to tell Angel....
Thoughts of being rushed to the hospital...
How to finance a liver transplant...
How I'd rather be dead than suffer...

By the end, I am positive: major stuff is going on in my organs.

Vickie (the Sonographer) has other ideas.

"Looks the same as it did last time." (ie: polyp in my gall bladder, cyst in my liver)
"Really? By the way you were clicking, I thought I was dying."
"Not today."

:)

I'm so ridiculous.

Comments

[Melissa]

I love you...even though you are ridiculous. :) Glad you are not dying today!

[Jenny]

Brilliant. Welcome to the human race. Lol

[Renee]

This sounds just like me. Always worrying about what is going wrong now inside this body that has fought so hard for naerly 3 decades. When I was diagnosed with uterine cancer nearly 2 yrs ago it became worse...ugh...so many tests to "rule out cancer" so many appointments, etc. Ya think we would adjust to the possibilities, but being human....guess not! GLAD all was the same for you...

[Saimz]

You are a silly billy!
But I guess it takes one to know one!
pfff haha.
I'm feeling a million times better today.
Saw my favorite acu physician yesterday and I feel SO GOOD!