Day 273: ROOAR!

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"Feeling better?"
"You're not yourself lately..."
"You seem really depressed."

That's the feedback I've been getting from friends and family lately. Not sure if it's the Ivermectin, or the Lyme, or the mourning over one-year of illness. One thing for certain, I'm down.

(Doo, doo, doo down doo be do down, down Come on come on Down doo be do down).

I talked to my doctor about it. Told him I'm really in the pooper. His advice?
Stop helping others. Stop giving so much. Stop giving energy to Lyme/negative people/events. Focus on YOU....something he illustrated on the back of his prescription pad (2's God (spirituality), 3's family, 4's friends, 5's--not even showing--lyme and co).

"See this?" he barked. "You need to put YOU back in the center of YOU."
Me--nodding.
"If you don't, you're going to end up like all of the Lyme doctors I know...wore out with nothing left to give."

Spoken like a man with experience (did I mention he's getting ready to take a 10 day vacation??).

So, there it is...FREE medical advice...offered by the one of Florida's finest.

PS For the record, I think the medication is a HUGE part of it. This is beyond sadness...I don't even feel like I am living in my body anymore...like my soul's gone. Hopefully, in 7 days, this will all be a memory. Then it's bye-bye Ivermectin. Hello GU treatment.  For your sanity, you may want to check back then. No need to put more rocks in your wheel barrel (unless you're into that kind of thing). ;)

Thanks for listening. XOXO

Altered Today: Plans for protocols, research, thoughts to ponder

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[Melissa]

<3 U!

[Laina]

Ok, so I've been thinking about you A LOT lately, you seem to be on my mind when I'm in the shower, or drying my hair. I guess I do my best thinking there. Anyway, I've had a lot to say, but the words weren't there. Everytime I sat down to email you, my mind was blank. However, this very post is EXACTLY what I've been thinking about! Your doctor's advice is the same advice I wanted to give you. I love you Kathy, and Angel too! I think in your quest for health and answers you've become obsessed with everything Lyme and Lyme related.(I've been there too, only sub Lyme for something like PCO.) It's time to turn the focus onto you. Put the groups away and the books down and just hang out. It's time to take a vacation from Lyme (even if you can't completely get away, you can still take a small breaks during the day...just 5 minutes will be a world of difference). You and Angel deserve it. I want you to be healthy, but happiness is even more important. Be kind to your soul and it will be kind to your body. I love you girl! Sending all my positive thoughts your way.