For two days, I've been crying. Not pain induced tears -- random ones, caused by air, thinking, and literally nothing. I can't explain it. It's almost like "I" am not even there...like I am a puppet and someone else is pulling the strings. In the last 24-hours, I have dissolved 5 or 6 times: standing by the garbage can, sorting pills, in a restaurant, sitting in my chair, folding laundry, and today while talking to a stranger.
It's kind of ironic, coming on the heels of a targeted acupuncture treatment. Tuesday, Tara specifically worked to release emotion and balance my heart. Since then, the cork's been unplugged.
The emotions are fascinating, but even more so are the utterances accompanying them. Yesterday, I blurted out "I just want to be normal" several times. I also said "I'm crazy," for no reason. Psst...Although the words left my mouth, did I mention "I" wasn't the one saying them?
Let's hope this is a Chinese Healing Reaction and not a new problem...
Altered Today: How I process emotions
I had the weepy response from acupuncture once, too! It was just plain awkward! It lasted for a few days and then I was back to normal, not crying over things like shoelaces and apples and spoons.
Posted by: alyson | 07/21/2011 at 09:16 PM
Just let it out! And, news flash: "normal" people cry. Sometimes they even cry about nothing. If you need someone to release emotions with you, just give me a call. No one cries alone when I'm around! ;)
Posted by: Robyn | 07/21/2011 at 10:14 PM
Believe it or not, tears are healing. Robyn and Alyson are absolutely right. Life has changed for you. In some fundamental and overwhelming ways. I think that is a good reaction to acupuncture. If it happens for more than a few days, and you absolutely can't get a handle on it, then it might be worth worrying about. Otherwise, this is a good thing.
Posted by: Jrsn1234 | 07/22/2011 at 12:16 PM
I've never had acupuncture but I've had this phenomenon too. I had it two weeks ago really bad, broke down sobbing uncontrollably in front of a group of people I don't know very well... And the puppet strings sensation (dissociation) and word-gaps are very familiar. I'm also familiar with what you say about people not understanding, and therefore minimizing or dismissing your symptoms. It's frustrating and, for me, embarrassing. Makes me hesitant to even talk about it. But it can get worse than just frustrating or embarrassing; when I was still a minor, without the ability to refuse medication, doctors mistook my dissociation for psychotic episodes and put me on some HORRIBLE drugs that weren't even FDA approved and had lifelong side effects. I really wish doctors and the general public would get it through their skulls that we do know our own bodies and brains, we know when something's wrong, we're not stupid or paranoid, and we deserve to be taken seriously.
Posted by: Jan Marie | 07/22/2011 at 05:58 PM
YES I've had days like that. I have them monthly.
Lately I've been super down, unmotivated and easy to anger.
A lot of it is because of school. Grrr.
Anyway, I'm glad you're letting it out. Crying is a great form of healing.
Posted by: Saimz | 07/28/2011 at 12:01 AM