It seems to me, something is changing with how my body handles illness. As one lyme blogger wrote: I no longer have good days; I have good hours. Case in point, the other day. A friend picked me up, took me for a smoothie and then ran me in the grocery store. We were only gone for a couple of hours, but when I came home I felt like I ran a marathon and was literally falling asleep while talking.
Today, another friend drove me to a baby shower "drop in." I was out of the house longer, but came home and collapsed for three hours...only to force myself awake to take medication.
I am trying to do more. I am trying to get back to life: put dishes in the dishwasher, take small walks, visit with people, shower. But doing so comes at a terrible price...inflamed hips, muscle pain, aching arms/feet, and extreme tiredness.
At this point, it's hard to know if I am improving or declining. When the pain gets better, the energy gets worse. When my energy's good, my functioning is bad. And don't even talk to me about dropping things or forgetting what I am talking about. It's like I'm involved in some sort of strange game show...
Pick this door to walk, but not think straight. Pick that door to talk, but not be able to stand the pain.
Just curious. Can I get another option???
Altered Today: Utilizing chauffeurs, time with friends, and sweet surprises: postcards from Canada, packages in the mail, plants, stuffed animals, lots of laughter. I may not feel well, but I've never felt more loved.
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