My version of homemade gluten-free Cheez-its...good, but nothing like the originals. Still, aren't they cute?
Yesterday was quite the adventure: lunch at Seasons52, brief trip to Walmart, baking, showering/ fixing my hair, first stab at S-E-X in a REALLY long time (YAY me!!). Today, however, rather than basking in the afterglow, I am reeling from the aftermath...too much, too fast, too soon (a common problem for people with chronic illness).
It's kind of like going dancing when you are just recovering from the flu or playing tennis with a "not quite healed" ankle; fun in the moment, not so great in the morning.
Truth is, when you get a taste of good, you want more. And, in my case, that looks like squeezing a week's worth of living into a day's worth of time (my average for feeling "normal"). It can also look like feeling a little worse for a little while as a result of my actions...a gamble, but one I am willing to take.
It's been an interesting week full of ups downs. I can't say I'm feeling better (the pain and symptoms are still there), but I can say I'm coping better...if I get 8 "good" hours a week, I'm going to make the most of them (which means, for the moment, I've stopped feeling sorry for myself and started carving out some semblance of a life).
In the end, it comes down to choices...choosing to live, choosing to accept, choosing to love. Today, I am choosing to rest and take it easy (in preparation for my next big adventure). One day at a time folks. One day at a time...
Altered Today: Learning How to Be Sick; worth a read if you're chronically ill. It's really good stuff.
Love it! You're doing a great job, girl!
Posted by: Laina | 04/18/2011 at 02:35 AM
We both know that we only have that one day at a time. Things can change in a heartbeat. That is what makes life so precious. It sounds like you had a wonderful day. I know it was "too much", but I am glad to hear that you were able to do what you did.
Posted by: Jrsn1234 | 04/18/2011 at 05:10 PM
When I was sick others were more accurate than me about when I was getting better. They noticed I had more good moments etc. More than I did. Ask your sig others they'll let u know if u seem better. Believe them. And by the way...you sound better right now. It's up and down. Hoping for more ups
Posted by: Kathy | 04/18/2011 at 09:42 PM