It started with my hand, then my arm, now my whole body. Over the course of a month, I've gone from trembling in my sleep to shuddering...almost convulsing. Now, at 4:43 in the morning, 'panicked' best describes how I feel. I don't want to go back to bed. I have no desire to see what happens next.
Sleep has always been my enemy. As a child, it plagued me with night terrors causing me to scream and violently throw up in my sheets. As an adult, it caused other problems: walking, talking, random insomnia, vivid horrible dreams. Looking back, it makes me wonder. Is it possible Lyme has been the culprit all along?
Desperate, I Google "tremors + sleep + Lyme," "convulsing in sleep," and "shuddering in sleep" looking for answers. The results bring up some familiar conditions: Multiple Sclerosis, Parkinson's disease, Alzheimer's disease, Creutzfeldt-Jakob disease, Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, Fibromyalgia, and yes, not surprisingly, Lyme.
"Myoclonus" they all point to; it's a symptom, not a sickness. At its most basic level, it's an involuntary contraction of muscles -- the jerk you feel before drifting off to sleep. At an exaggerated level, it's pretty nasty stuff, limiting your ability to talk, walk, eat, and even live.
For healthy people, mild Myoclonus is normal. For others, it presents as a result of other things: infection, head or spinal cord injury, stroke, brain tumors, kidney/liver failure, lipid storage disease, chemical/drug poisoning, or damage to the central nervous system. This, unfortunately, is the category I think I fall into.
Anxiously, I read about treatments aimed at reducing symptoms. 'Clonazepam' comes up -- a tranquilizer. Just the thought of one more drug makes me cringe. Please tell me this is just a passing phase.
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