For two days, I've been crying. Not pain induced tears -- random ones, caused by air, thinking, and literally nothing. I can't explain it. It's almost like "I" am not even there...like I am a puppet and someone else is pulling the strings. In the last 24-hours, I have dissolved 5 or 6 times: standing by the garbage can, sorting pills, in a restaurant, sitting in my chair, folding laundry, and today while talking to a stranger.
It's kind of ironic, coming on the heels of a targeted acupuncture treatment. Tuesday, Tara specifically worked to release emotion and balance my heart. Since then, the cork's been unplugged.
The emotions are fascinating, but even more so are the utterances accompanying them. Yesterday, I blurted out "I just want to be normal" several times. I also said "I'm crazy," for no reason. Psst...Although the words left my mouth, did I mention "I" wasn't the one saying them?
Let's hope this is a Chinese Healing Reaction and not a new problem...
Altered Today: How I process emotions