My version of homemade gluten-free Cheez-its...good, but nothing like the originals. Still, aren't they cute?
Yesterday was quite the adventure: lunch at Seasons52, brief trip to Walmart, baking, showering/ fixing my hair, first stab at S-E-X in a REALLY long time (YAY me!!). Today, however, rather than basking in the afterglow, I am reeling from the aftermath...too much, too fast, too soon (a common problem for people with chronic illness).
It's kind of like going dancing when you are just recovering from the flu or playing tennis with a "not quite healed" ankle; fun in the moment, not so great in the morning.
Truth is, when you get a taste of good, you want more. And, in my case, that looks like squeezing a week's worth of living into a day's worth of time (my average for feeling "normal"). It can also look like feeling a little worse for a little while as a result of my actions...a gamble, but one I am willing to take.
It's been an interesting week full of ups downs. I can't say I'm feeling better (the pain and symptoms are still there), but I can say I'm coping better...if I get 8 "good" hours a week, I'm going to make the most of them (which means, for the moment, I've stopped feeling sorry for myself and started carving out some semblance of a life).
In the end, it comes down to choices...choosing to live, choosing to accept, choosing to love. Today, I am choosing to rest and take it easy (in preparation for my next big adventure). One day at a time folks. One day at a time...
Altered Today: Learning How to Be Sick; worth a read if you're chronically ill. It's really good stuff.