What do you pray for? Love? Guidance? A specific result? Do you pray at all?
When I was little, I prayed diligently....usually in a "tit for tat" fashion.
"God, If you just get me out of this," I would cry. "I promise I will never do x, y, z again."
Lately, however, my prayers have taken a new tone...
I first noticed the change on my birthday in October. Feeling sick, I spent the evening with girlfriends who were nice enough to buy me a cake, make dinner, and chat. "God, I know you have a purpose for everything," I silently prayed as I blew out the candles. "Use me and use my life to make a difference."
Then, while driving to the doctor's office yesterday, I noticed it again. Rather than bargaining with God, I carefully weighed what to ask for. Healing? Peace? Courage? Suddenly, an unfamiliar thought entered my mind. "ACCEPTANCE," I heard myself whisper. "Ask for acceptance."
To me, acceptance is the opportunity to stop resisting. There is a beauty in acceptance – a peace in it.
God, grant me acceptance for what I cannot control. Help me learn from it, find the beauty in it, and use it to help others. God, instead of struggling, remind me to Let it Be.
Altered Today: Conversations with God